Thnx Nicole, Jesslyn, Agnes and my dear cousin MinLin(i hope you are still reading this...) and all those who read my little blog here!!!

yea, so this post is a tribute to all my frenz who actually read my blog!!!


well, it is apparent to even myself that my life is not one of those epic, soap operas where everything possible happens. no. on the contrary, my life is more like the boring book in the library no one ever bothers to read. so it really makes me very happy to have people who would read my blog...


and for this, i thank you all!

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my last blog was really a mess.

i filled it up with all sorts of things that came to my mind...

from random things that happen day to day, to the things i have been thinking about.

i even went as far as to post mini-fiction onto in.........

but, that was a little too messy.......

that is why i decided to avoid making the same mistake as the last with this blog.

i'm sorry agnes, this blog is going to stay complicated with things you don't understand........

nevertheless, i will strive to make more intriguing posts!
challenge the mind!!!


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sometimes science scares me.

no, i don't mean that it gets too complicated and freaks me out in tests.......

i mean that it threatens my basic idea of being...... well... me.


the first time that i experienced such a feeling was in Secondary school, while studying biology.
its easy to ignore the implications of what we learn in chemistry, as we can always, easily seperate it from ourselves.
but that gets a little hard to do when we learn about the human anatomy...

i used to see (still do anyway...) people as one entity. one person, one entity.
but that gets abit hard when you consider the scientific aspect that we are all made out of many (millions and millions) of tiny cells. and that these cells are made up of even more tiny particles called molecules, and the molecules are made of atoms...................

the list goes on......


so, are we one? or many? (pun here........ watch the grammar...)




this frightens me especially when we talk about the nervous system...(not the one that makes us anxious..... the bio one...)
are our thoughts just the firing of electrical impulses in the grey thing we call a brain?
what about sight?
are leaves really green, or some color we cannot see?
or maybe there is no color in this world and all we see is just...... well.... false?


so what then is true?
if what we see itself is not, what can be trusted?

why do some combinations of vibrations in the air sound good, while others terrify us?

these are just some questions i fear to even seek the answer.

the more we learn the more that scares us.

i still remember the time when nothing matters...
a time where all that exists is all that we know. (and that wasn't much...)

a time where "financial crisis" means nothing more then "tgnblmoskehguirn" (last i checked that doesn't mean anything...)

at least then i can avoid the frightening reality of what we are today.


nevertheless, life must go on.
as i continuously renew myself mentally and physically (cells die and are replaced by new ones all the time...)

so would all of you.

how apt would it be to describe a long lost acquaintance as a whole new person!

literally....



it scares me.
really, it does.

how i miss the days of innocence......



"Age is a high price to pay for maturity"
how true...... (F.Y.I that quote was on a mug given to me for christmas!!)