Recently, I feel kinda shitty.

Its not something new, but still..... There is someone I truly miss...

Over the years, there have been several girls that have made my heart flutter. But... There is one special one.

Every time, when I converse with her, I get so excited, I just cannot control myself.

And yet, when I try to recount the storys of us, it seems rather, normal. In fact, it does not have much of the juicy gossip worthy stuff... But still.....

Nevertheless... I know this is really horrible timing... For both me, and her... But still.... I have somehow managed to get enough courage to get this posted....

But, I'm not too sure about telling her. After all, there is still so much at stake. A friendship so precious to me... I really don't know what would be of me if I lost it....

Really... I have no idea what to do..... Or how....

Sometimes I marvel at my uselessness...